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Ep 24// Are You in a Test or Feeling Under Attack? Strategies and Perspectives for Understanding

Updated: Mar 30, 2022



Hey friend... so do you want to hear a super low (slightly embarrassing) moment in my life...well just push PLAY! Lol


When you are walking in obedience, growing, and learning NEW things...there will be struggles and tests. You will feel resistance. You may even feel attacked!


Testing and struggle are inevitable on our journey! It can often leave us feeling discouraged and confused, but today we are talking about straight-up TRUTH and perspective for not just understanding Tests and trials in our life but for overcoming!


We’ve got to take our THOUGHTS captive because after all, so much of the battle is in the mind...so I’m sharing some encouraging thoughts for you today as we ask ourselves questions like:


💫 Is the test you are facing an OPPORTUNITY because God has your best interest in mind?


💫 Could it mean that God wants to bring you into something greater?


💫 Does testing mean that God isn’t pleased with you? What does it reveal about His heart for us?


What is the REAL value of tests or struggles in our life?


Let’s get our eyes on HIM...as we embrace the process of purpose!


Let’s refocus our thoughts so we can run without wavering towards our greatest potential as wives, moms, and kingdom entrepreneurs!


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Full Episode Transcription:

Welcome back to The Nourishing Mompreneur Podcast, where we get encouraged and empowered as we pursue our greatest potential within the walls of our home. Hey Mama, my name is Michelle Hiatt, and I'm so thankful you're here. Do you feel like your life is good, but something in you feels unfulfilled? Do you feel stuck in the trenches of motherhood, exhausted and working so hard, but feeling like you're getting nowhere? Do you have big dreams you hold in your heart, but you've been living small? Are you motivated for more, but don't have the clarity or the courage to do anything about it? Do you want to discover God's best and see if it's really possible to be an excellent wife, an intentional mother, and be successful in business, all for the glory of God? As a wife of 16 years, a homeschooling mom of five, and an entrepreneur, I know exactly how you feel. Every bit of it. I truly believe that the most important work you will ever do is within the walls of your home and that there is purpose in every season. If you are a fellow business-minded mama, with a heart for home and a love for Jesus, let's process this journey and grow together.


Hey friends. So do you want to hear a super low, slightly embarrassing moment in my life? Well just just keep listening. When you are walking in obedience, growing and learning new things, there will be struggled and test. You will feel resistance you may even feel attacked. Testing and struggle is inevitable on our journey. And it can often leave us feeling discouraged and confused but today we're talking about straight up truth and perspective for not just understanding tests and trials in our life, but for overcoming too. We've got to take our thoughts captive because after all, so much of the battle is in the mind. So I'm sharing some encouraging thoughts for you today as we ask ourselves questions like is the test you are facing an opportunity because God has your best interests in mind? Could it mean that God wants to bring you into something greater? Does testing mean that God isn't pleased with you? What does it reveal about his heart for us anyways? What is the real value of tests and struggles in our life?


These are questions that you might have. And I just want to address this today in today's episode, so let's get our eyes on Him as we embrace the process of purpose. That is success after all right? This process that we're on, let's refocus our thoughts so we can run without wavering towards our greatest potential as wives, moms and kingdom entrepreneurs. I'm totally here for that. Welcome Message and see if it's really possible to be an excellent wife and intentional mother and be successful in business most of fast and I wasn't quite sure why is within the walls of your home, and that there's purpose in every season. If you are a fellow business minded mama with a heart for home and a love for Jesus, let's process this journey and grow together.


In January of this year, I did a 21 day fast. So it was a spiritual fast and I wasn't quite sure what to expect. But I did expect to come out of that feeling more mentally, spiritually and emotionally strong. God had been doing so much in my heart. I was really seeking to rest in Him and to make room for God more of him to bring through some breakthroughs. I was really just anticipating that I wanted to hear his voice more clearly, to be strengthened and renewed in spirit to receive healing and greater freedom in certain areas. Now, I understand that fasting is not a magic pill. It's not like God, I'm fasting so that I can receive X, Y and Z. God's not a vending machine where we put in our good works and out pops our reward of choice. That shouldn't be our intention at least. Obedience, not obligation or selfish ambition should be our driving force. I only entered into a fast because I knew without a doubt that God was leading into it. So that being said, fasting is absolutely inactive obedience, of surrender of submission. of creating space for God to show up and do what only He can do. It's planting a seed of righteousness that in faith will bear good fruit. And I think that in faith you can believe for fresh revelation miracles and breakthroughs to be activated through an act of obedience like fasting. But this isn't about fasting. This is about the after effects or the expectations if you will. So I came out of my fast expecting of great things. I expected to just feel strong and I think just like a spiritual giant mighty, and I quickly ended up super discouraged because I was floundering so hard. Immediately.


I came off at my fast and I just felt like I was being thrown this way and thrown that way. And the week or two afterwards were really difficult. Like I said, I kind of thought that I would feel like some kind of spiritual giant and instead I felt pressed down my eating rhythms, my emotions, I just felt all over the place. And I would have a fantastic day where I float in the spirit and then the next day I just felt a mess. I felt confused because I couldn't figure out what is going on. How do I get back to my to my personal like new normal because God was calling me deeper. He was calling me different and I wasn't going to go back to being the same person I was before that time of fasting. I was so discouraged and I just felt weak and unstable after completing such a strong spiritual fast I'm like how could I be so weak God? What kind of failure am I? How do I think I can continue pursuing my potential in new courageous ways? When this is my state?


I had a big baking week making the nursing cupcake jars, which often looks like or not often always looks like a couple really late nights in the kitchen. I usually listen to podcasts or sermons and I have a really sweet time with the Lord actually look forward to it. It's just a quiet time where I work and the Lord just speaks. But on this particular night. I just come off of my fast I was kind of struggling and I could not shake the heaviness the doubt the feelings of discouragement, weakness, and then of course the guilt and the shame of struggling at all. So I had a really low moment. I was literally found myself at like 2 am sitting in the pantry like crying in a bag of tortilla chips. Like I just felt a complete loss of control. I was like just ready to throw in the towel and not move forward with what God had already told me was my next step. Have you ever had a moment like that where you just sit down in your sorrow and let your emotions get the best of you? Where you feel like throwing all your dreams and desires in the trash? You wonder if you're cut out for the calling.


In that moment, I just held everything out to the Lord and I was like okay, God, I will slow down and wait on you. I knew that God had done a huge work in me during that time of just that set apart time of fasting which is quite significant. I bring that up because it was a time that I specifically just set apart for him. I knew that he was always going to continue working but what I was aware of is like wow, there's just so much more work to do. So I was like I'm committed to your ways. God I'm committed to your timing however long it takes. I'm just gonna like slow my roll here. I recognize that you have so much more to do in me. But then, then I realized I realized that God wasn't changing his mind or taking back the promises that he had already spoken. That he had already confirmed time and time again in my life. Through that night and after all the tears I came to my senses and I realized that obviously my emotions didn't dictate my reality. But my thoughts were not coming from a place of truth. I was under attack.


You see one of the things that I've been praying for was to hear God's voice more clearly. As we hear him more clearly we can draw close to Him and He was speaking a lot to my identity and I was just grasping with a fresh Grace who I am in Him. It's also important to be aware that there is another voice that is speaking to there's the voice of the enemy and he is an accuser and he wants to steal your identity and he wants to speak lies over your life. And I was more sensitive to listening. I was hearing God's voice but in this situation, I was hearing the wrong voice. The confusion was causing me to spiral and saying, oh my gosh, he's so dumb guys. Like his tactics are always the same. He wants you just to question everything. Just like in the Garden of Eden. They're in the garden, and he told them do not eat from this tree. And Satan comes and he's like, are you sure that God told you that? Did he really say that? That's exactly what he does to us today. That's exactly what he was doing to me in that moment. Are you sure that God told you that? Are you sure? Anytime you feel guilt and shame and a lack of self worth it is not the voice of God, don't get it confused. I was seeking to step out in faith and deeper into my calling. And Satan was trying to crush my competence with fear and insecurity and just straight up wise seeds of doubt, right. Nothing was even wrong. Nothing was wrong. I just got confused. I felt overwhelmed. I just was in a funk.


Once I realized that, wait a minute. God didn't change his mind about me. I'm just hearing the wrong message. I'm listening to the wrong voice. And I identified that it was spiritual warfare going on. I was able to immediately rise up and call him out as a liar that he is and you know what victory and peace came immediately. And in the days and weeks after that, so many breakthroughs began to come and beautiful things begin to happen. But you guys peace and clarity is such a gift to be treasured. So protect your peace because the Spirit of God is the giver of that.


Peace is a fruit of his Spirit and God desires that for our lives. So when we lose our peace, that is when we need to start asking questions and seek to get to the root the truth of the situation. When you are walking in obedience you're growing, you're learning new things. There are going to be struggles and test. You will feel resistance. You may even feel attacked. Some of the attacks are probably just your own thoughts. But identify what voice you are identifying with. Testing does not always mean a significant trial of some kind. The battle is so much in our mind and testing often comes in the light of a thought. So what thoughts my friend are you thinking? What lies are you believing? If your thoughts are rooted in fear are laced with guilt, shame, doubt, anything. If they go against the promises of God in your life, you can be sure to rise above with the Word of God. Our battles are not against flesh and blood. We know that but so often we forget in the moment. Going through trials and tests are part of our faith journey. which means that as a Christian wife, as a mom as entrepreneur, you will not only learn a lot, but you're going to be tested along the way.


Don't let these moments moments when emphasize that word. Don't let these moments steal what God is doing in your life. If I had sat down in the pantry, in my moment of sorrow and shame and like whatever, like my low moment, if I had agreed with the doubts and the fears that I was feeling and quit right then in there, there would be no podcast today and I would not be speaking truth to you right now. You will often be tested or tempted with the very things that God is teaching you. Don't get discouraged or confused. When you're in school, there's typically a test after the lesson right? So don't let it take you by surprise that as you have fresh revelation in your life as you learn new things, that you're you're not tested on the very things that you're learning. Hold on to who you are. So why would God allow you to be tested and to struggle? Why would God allow us at times to be tested into struggle? I'm not coming at you as a theologian or Bible scholar or anything like that, but I am a mom and I can use a simple example to understand that sometimes, as a mother like we let our children struggle because we love them.


For example, this summer, my two youngest girls completed swim lessons. So why did I pay good money to make the time sacrifice and to submit them to the process of learning and struggle? It's because I love them because learning to swim is for their own good, because it will save their life. It is out of the goodness of my heart that I push them to grow in a valuable ways that will serve them for the rest of their life. So I take them to swim lessons and I sit there and I watch them learn what is learning look like? It looks like struggle. I watched them resist I watch them cry, try to argue and negotiate with a teacher even my gosh, my youngest was a hoot. The first week I just kept like jotting down notes of things. She was saying I was like this girl. Oh my gosh, I mean the first day she was telling the teacher, "you're lying to me," like like just all these things. I'm like, this is just she's so funny. She was having an issue with the struggle of the process. Now I took a picture of her when she got in the pool the first day she was super excited about the idea of swimming. She was pumped up. But as soon as her head went into the water, the battle began because she had been taught to be obedient. Fortunately, she could submit to the process and she did great, but it was a challenge. And sometimes we get excited about the end goal and we forget that we got to put our head into the water and do the hard things. To get there. So I watched them learn. I also watched them practice. Repeating it day after day, takes time. It takes consistency. We have to learn lessons and we have to practice and rehearse those to really get them sometimes. And at the end of it all I watch my girls get tested.


Often once we learn and comprehend the lesson in our life or gain clarity on what God is speaking to us. We are tested on that very truth. Even just this weekend, right when lessons are over, but we're still practicing. We're still learning. We're still reinforcing the things that have already been taught. My daughter she's been trained and equipped to swim. She still wants to resist some fear still wants to kind of get the best of her when we get into the pool. So she was in the water. She was on the step she was swimming. We were just practicing. And I flat out asked her like "Baby, what do you do if you ever fall into the pool, if you can't touch, if you get to the deep end, if you need air, or you get scared or you're in a bind, what do you do?" And then once she answered "I float," I immediately just grabbed her and pushed her out into the water to test her. I'm not just being a mean mom, I love her I care I don't want her to forget what she has been taught. I was right there. I would never let her drown. I would never let anything like that happen. But I had to give her the opportunity to learn and to let the lessons stick. She needs a reminder because it can be the very thing that saves her life and I did it again out of nothing but love. I love her enough to do the hard things to push her into the deep waters to challenge her in ways that feels scary to her. Business and motherhood will sure test you. I think we can all agree on that. They're going to they're going to test your faith and deep ways and I just want to bring to the light that there is a natural progression of learning and growing and being tested at times is normal. It's part of it. I gave permission for the swim teacher to teach and test my children out of good intention and love for my children. Our heavenly Father loves us so much and he always has our best interests in mind too. If he allows testing or even discipline, just trust his heart at those times when you just don't understand and life just doesn't make sense. Or feel scary. can cling to that verse and we know that in all things God works for the good for those who love Him who have been called according to His purpose. We can know that he is working on our behalf. He is for us. He is on our side.